Nothing to do, but Settle

Dear You,


I know, I know. I'm no good. I can't seem to do anything right. I've always lived with that, and thought nothing of it. But now it's coming back to bite me.

I don't want to apologize for being me, but I can wish to be better.

Because I'm getting worse at school, so I can't get a job.

Because I've been playing for so long, yet it's still annoying.

Because we're not as close as we used to be.

Because I can't always tell you the truth.

So please just take me how I am. It's really hard to fly if you've already fallen. I promise I'm trying. Use patience. Remember that you are the base of me. Please don't be disappointed.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Memories I Wish I Had

Dear You,


You waltzed right into my life, literally.

And ever since then I was intrigued by the thought of you.

Yet this is just one interest you and I do not share.

I have to apologize for being hung up like a clingy, wet towel.

But I don't have to apologize for being me.

So this is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Look Up to You

Dear You,


I feel terrible. I'm really happy that you're home. I just wish I could express that. I feel like I'm ruining our relationship slowly.

I'm sorry for being such a girl; a hormonal teenage girl.

I'm not trying to be rude, but for some idiotic reason it comes naturally. I'm so sorry. I want you to be my friend. And even though that sounds so simple, it would mean the whole entire world to me.

I want to go places with you, and have inside jokes. I want to be just like you.

I know there's an age difference and it doesn't work that way. I know you're closer to our brothers than you and I will ever be. But I want to make an effort.

I feel terrible.

And you're really cool.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Just Tell Me What to Think

Dear You,


I can't tell if its a big ego, or you being insecure. Because apparently everything that I feel is because of you. Either way, I just can't stand it anymore. Everything is too weird around you now, and maybe that's my fault.

Don't listen to anyone, because they all have it wrong. Because of them, I don't believe in fate anymore. I don't know who they think they're kidding. And you've apparently noticed that too. You said so yourself, the exact thing I was thinking.

Maybe I'm just mad because I know I've messed everything up. I'm really sorry for that, by the way. I just don't have any of the answers you want to hear, and it kills me.

I've been putting this off. Writing this letter. I never know what to say. It seems that you've started to be annoyed of me like everyone else, something I deemed impossible. But everyone changes, so I should've expected this.

I just wish I'd noticed sooner; what was happening.

I find it hard to talk to you.

So I'll just have to write it for now.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

You're Totally Bombastic

Dear You,


Thank you for being as weird as me. I feel slightly normal when I am with you. Well, only because, you know, we're into the same stuff. Like Howl's Moving Castle, and bizarre music, and 'That's What She Said' jokes.

And thank you for showing me Destery. 'Nuff said.

I'm really ecstatic I found a friend like you. Like over the moon, or whatever.

And who knew that we were this similar all along? Not me. Wish I did though.

So let's continue our amazing adventures, and grow old together. Because you are supermegafoxyawesomehot. (A Very Potter Musical reference.)

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Going Nowhere

Dear You,


You're confusing me.

Please stop.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

I Only Say That Because I Care

Dear You,


You often say, "I will never turn out like that." But you're heading straight for that road. I want to help you, I do. But your problem is not an addiction. It's an act of trying to prove yourself to those around you.

Listen to me. You do not need to prove yourself to anyone. I can only hope that someday you will recognize that. You say that I judge you. But I'm just trying to make a difference in your life. Please listen to my 'judgements' because they are not suppose to hurt you.

I love you. A lot. And I don't want your stupidity to hurt you. I try not to get angry, but it's all so frustrating. I'm trying to play the role of a big sister who cares, and that's what makes me feel responsible for all of this.

I feel like I'm failing. I feel like I should have done better with you. I feel like it's all my fault.

Please stop abusing yourself.

It's affecting the people around you.

I don't want to see you ruined physically or mentally.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Things I Forgot to Say

Dear You,


If I would have known what an idiotic mess you were, I wouldn't have gotten involved. You see, the whole world does not revolve around you.

It's okay to be ignorant, but that doesn't mean you have to be arrogant. But if we are talking about ignorance, then you wouldn't understand.

So I forgive you for being stupid. I really do. But I can't forgive you for being a jerk to me all the time. Because there's no reason for that.

You may have thought you were just teasing, but what you said really hurt. And I'll never have the guts to tell you that to your face.

I wish I could tell you that you said all the wrong things.

But it's over, and I'm done.

I give up.

Sorry I wasn't what you wanted.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.