Sorry, I've Been Violent

Dear You,


I honestly want to shove your face up against an electric can opener.  But I won't.  Do you want to know why?  Like really?  Well, here's the thing:  I am so sick of your half-hearted excuses.  It's seriously a downer.  And it takes away a bit of my self-esteem, even though I know it totally shouldn't.

I just sit here and wonder if anything you say is true.  I wonder if any of the crap spewing from your mouth has any meaning behind it.

I am so sick of this.

I am so sick of you.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Dear You,


Ugh.  Times a thousand.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Yes

Dear You,


You're making me go to that place again.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Wilt

Dear You,


I promise I'm screaming.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Unspoken

Dear You,


I didn't realize what was going on at first, but now you have me scared to death.

Please get better soon.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Silence

Dear You,


I really really really really really hate what you are becoming.

Like a lot.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

The Call

Dear You,


You wouldn't know it, but I'm still sad. 

I think of how I sat in the car and didn't want to come inside because I knew everything would be different, but the same.

And the first thing you said to me was, "Don't think I'm a bad person."

And I hugged you and said, "I don't think you're a bad person."

And then you told me you loved me.  And I said it back.

I am not disappointed in you.  But every time I see another one leave, I think of you.  And then I get that weird lump in my throat and it takes awhile for it to go away.

I feel like I should be over it now, but I'm not.  I think I'll always feel a little bit of regret for you.  I think I'll always get that weird lump in my throat.  But it's only because I love you and I look up to you and I'm so sad you missed out on this chance, this amazing opportunity.

But you are so strong, stronger than me, and I am so proud of that.  I'm proud to call you my brother.

I haven't told anyone how I really feel about all of this because I don't think they'll relate.  And I guess this doesn't count as talking about it because I don't think you'll ever read this.  That's okay, though.  It helps to just write it down.

But yeah, I'm still sad.

And I still love you.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Birthday Wishes

Dear You,


Do you really want to know what I did on my birthday?

I watched Netflix.

All day.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Aloud

Dear You,


This is stupid.  We're chasing our tails.

Why can't we do it together?

Why don't we just fess up?

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Reassured

Dear You,


I like the things you say.

You say good things.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

It's the Thing I Like to Call Agency

Dear You,


God did not make any curses rain upon your head.   He did not throw a fiery serpent at you.  He did not thrust this oh-so-dramatic life onto you.

You did that all on your freaking own.

Why can't you see that?

Why can't you see your own stupidity?

Listen, maybe God is, in fact, answering your prayers.   Maybe you just don't want to hear it.  Did you ever consider that he doesn't agree with your sins?  Did you ever think that he's not going to tell you to choose the lesser of two evils?

So stop complaining.

Stop cramming your sacrilegious junk down my throat.

Because guess what?  I agree with God.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

I Think

Dear You,

I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I like you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.  I love you.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Popsicle Kid

Dear You,


Let's be friends.

You ain't never had a friend like me.

Ha.  Ha ha.  Ha.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Burnt Toast

Dear You,


I've just recently made an amazing discovery.  We're not so different.  Like, at all.  We have the same stupid emotions running through our brains and so many opportunities flying over our scalps.  We lack the things we need and have everything we don't want.  Yeah, we're a little messed up.

But that's okay.

Because we can be messed up together.

Forever.

Okay?

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

I Was Gonna Do an Obvious Title, but Got Embarrassed

Dear You,


Here's the thing.  I've totally misused you.  And I've gotten a lot of crap for it.  I've heard your sob story from just about everybody.  You know, guilt trips and stuff.

Yeah, I can be a real jerk.  But I just want you to know that I'm sorry.  And I'm not being sarcastic this time.

I didn't think I was the type of girl who subconsciously went through through the process of, "You always want what you cant have." or "You don't know what you've got until it's gone."  But, turns out, I am.

Because I like you.

Again.

But I haven't seen you since, like, April or something.

So how is that possible?

Do I like the thought of you?

Am I just mentally insane?

Do I find pleasure in self pity?

Or am I serious this time? (Probably not.)

What the freaking heck is wrong with me?

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Pickle

Dear You,


I hate being the one to initiate everything.  And I hate being shot down every single time.  Why don't you try it for once?  Then maybe I'll blow you off.

But I probably won't really.

Because I would be so ecstatic if you actually asked me to hang out.  I mean, over the five years we've known each other, you have never so much as suggested an actual meeting of some sort.

Are you scared?  Nah, that'd be ridiculous... Are you ridiculous?

Do you find me irritating?  It's okay if you do.  I already know I'm obnoxious.  I'm actually proud of it.  (That's probably a bad thing.)

So how 'bout it, kiddo?  Wanna ask me something?  Anything?

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Australian Shepherd

Dear You,


You whine.

You pee.

You lick.

You bark.

You're stupid.

You love me.

You're smart.

You're depressed when I'm gone.

You're overly excited when I come home.

You whine.

And whine.

But I love you.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

World of Colors

Dear You,


You make me laugh.

Like, a lot.

I'm so happy I share a name with someone like you.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Habit

Dear You,


People often ask me, "Do you like anyone?"

And then your face pops in my head.

And then I say, "No."

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Awkward

Dear You,


Let's try that again.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Grudge

Dear You,


I only hate you for now.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

You Loser

Dear You,


I want to kiss you.

And it makes me feel all tingly when I think about it.

Did you know that about yourself?

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Involuntary

Dear You,


Freak.

I am caught up in a never-ending cycle.

Do you know how many letters I've written to you?

Shut up.

Go away.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Rhetorical

Dear You,


So, like, I see you met someone.

That's cool.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Facade

Dear You,


I'm so sorry.

So so so so so so so so sorry.

Is that good enough?

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.

Mystery

Dear You,


You don't exist.

But I'm in love with you.

This is my letter to you,


Sincerely Me.